So, I watched the movie "bedazzled", the old school one with Brendan Frasier. It got me thinking, so let's flesh it out. What it got me thinking about is the fact that I don't *want* anything. You know, like people want to be rich, or popular, or have more friends, or be better looking, or any number of things. I used to, but not anymore. I wonder why. I guess I figure that if I really want something, than I should just go get it. It's not really that hard. If I cared about being rich, I'd go be a lawyer, or an engineer, or something, but the key thing, the really important thing about this is that I don't. If I really wanted to be rich, I mean really wanted it, then I would be. People, as general rule, get the things that they really, really want. Not just the surface desires, but the things that you truly want, beneath all the surface desires. There's a plane of desire in our souls, the core of things, that exists beneath everything, and it's not the level that most people think it is. We THINK we want to be good, be righteous, go to heaven, get married, raise a family, be rich, help people, etc. etc., but you know what? Most of the time (not all the time, obviously), most of the time we don't really want those things. If we did, we'd have them. I think the challenge is to become people who truly want good things, rather than people who WANT to want good things. Anyway, I digress, as I usually do. The point is, I know what I want, but for some reason I don't want it enough at the moment. I'm working on it though. Some things I do want and am doing the right thing to get those things, but it's more a factor of time, or is dependant on things I can't control. Meh.

Seems to me that by looking at things we are currently getting, we can discern the things we truly want, and then change ourselves based on that discovery.